cassie5squared

I live in England, renowned for its bad weather. I am known to gripe and moan to people about how it's too cold, too wet, too gloomy, etc.

But sometimes, just sometimes, I get a reminder that there are still beautiful things in the sky.

Tonight, just as it goes dark and the street lights come on, I walk into my kitchen and see a stunning full moon rising over the rooftops. I like the moon, so I can't help but stop and gaze for a bit.

Then, a few hours later, I leave the living room for something, and as I walk back in - facing the window - two stunningly bright stars are shining directly through it. One of them is Venus, immortalised in my favourite geekery as Earendil. As I go and look up at the sky properly, it becomes apparent that the sky is so beautifully clear that even through the haze of light from the city, a large number of stars are clearly visible. I wibble for a while.

Nature is bloody beautiful.

You know what can be a nasty shock?

Spending the last few days happily reading through some of your favourite books while at work, chatting to co-workers about them and how much you love them and yeah, they're written for younger people but they're a nice bit of nostalgia... and then coming home last night to find the author of said books has died.

I'm in a bit of a weird headspace right now. Brian Jacques wasn't supposed to be able to die, he was one of my childhood figures who was supposed to just keep going for ever.

One of the PPC Boarders wrote this beautiful tribute for him, though; it makes me feel a little better, knowing I'm not the only one who's going to miss him.

But still. *wibble* Two of my favourite authors passed away in the last two years...

Cassie inna sad headspace. :(

So, my official tenancy agreement ran out back in October, but the staff pulled a few strings to keep me here till we could find somewhere else. We've been looking around a few housing associations, and yesterday I got invited to look around a flat.

It's twice the size of my current one, it's warm, and I love the atmosphere. In short, I officially accepted it today and will be sorting out the paperwork over the next few weeks, and will be officially moving in on January 17th. ^_^

I also has job interviews coming up in the New Year, and possible college courses, and basically life is yay. ^_^

*happy*

So, back when I was on my Prince's Trust course, I did a two-week work experience placement at a local media centre. They had me making a short film (two minutes-ish) on the theme of respect, for this international competition.

I finished the film, handed it in, left and thought no more of it.

Today, I got the news that my film was one of the UK's SIX WINNING ENTRIES.

MY FILM.

In six weeks' time I'm going to Denmark with the other winners, and the winners from the other countries, for a week-long, all-expenses-paid-including-my-passport, media camp.

OMG.

O. M. F. G.

*incoherent*

So. Have been online for nearly a week and haven't made a single post here. What is wrong with me? Normally I babble as much as I can when I get the chance.

Maybe that's it. I've had the chance so I don't feel I have anything to put down. But still. Getting thoughts and stuff written down means I can put them into some kind of order.

- Yeah, right. Order like alphabet soup is in order.

Shush, whoever that was. I swear, this past week seems to have been the Week Of Developing Multiple Personalities. Although I guess they're not personalities, really. Just a large number of characters I created recently who seem to want to run around in my head shouting ideas about their life stories faster than I can get them down. For information about said characters, please ask nicely. Alternatively, you can look here, where it gives you basic information about their appearance, recruitment and Department. Backstories will follow once I get them into some sort of coherency. Reece and Dana in particular have rather sad backgrounds, but-

- Too much detail!

Okay, okay.

Other stuff I've been doing this week: the EPC RP started on Wednesday. Since then I've been battling with slow-as-a-snail internet connection, a stinking cold and RP partners who actually have lives to get into battling the Enforcers of the Plot Continuum. Well, I need something to do while waiting for my mum to come home from hospital.

Well. Previous hyperness has worn off spectacularly.

- Brother has failed to do as his mother told him, and is in fact deliberately disobeying her. I'm gonna get a roasting for that when she ges back. Because of course it'll be my fault he decided to go stay at his druggie friend's all night.

- Where is everyone? Okay, so had entertaining chat with julyflame for a while on Skype/Gtalk, and platinumyo can always be counted on to talk to, but seriously, what happened to everyone? I know cofmanynames is away, for which I am greatly disappointed, but where's agentsara and signed_up? Guys, seriously, that's uncool, vanishing without leaving me an excuse. I need them to help me keep my scrambled brain in order - or scramble it more, depending.

- It's too early for oozaru_angel to be on, too. Damn. I need a fix of Oozaru. If neither of us can come up with anything else, she can always be counted on to distract me with a hefty dose of RPing.

OA, I need you~ Turn up soon, please?

- I have no mints. Why did I not bring my mints? The mints keep me sane.

Sadly, not permanently permanently. Yet. Though I received a tip from a member of staff where I live that may see more LJ posts from yours truly, if not chats.

Happytimes on my Prince's Trust course, which those of you with exceptionally long memories will remember from my last post. My confidence is going through the roof. I can't remember the last time I got on so well with such a sizeable group of people face-to-face for so long. For a group of young people who are more used to talking with their fists and smoke like chimneys (no offence to any smokers who may read this, it's just not a habit I'm fond of being in close proximity to), they're actually pretty nice. Or maybe I've just been living a far too sheltered life.

I've been missing everyone, too. There's my rambling with KG, my giggling with Sara, my betaing and OFUing with OA, my chatting with Ciri, and my [censored! You're not getting any details of that!] with Plat. If you read this, guys, comment and let me know you still wanna know me. *puppy eyes of devastation*

In conclusion: I got tagged for a meme.

I was tagged by: cofmanynames. I hereby have no idea who has already done this meme, so I shall tag: nobody.

( Here's a meme. )

For those who have been worrying about my unexplained absence from the internet for a whole four days, panic no more. Please.

The cause was a malfunction in the connection, which hopefully will be fixed. If it isn't, though, please can we have no more panicking? It's just a breakdown of electronics. I'm not sulking, I haven't been kidnapped and I haven't topped myself.


On another note, my benefits have been sorted and I got a ton of back pay, so Christmas shopping next weekend. Might as well get it done.

Fist off, update on the personal situation: thank you, Mr Consultant. Six weeks and you'll be off the crutches, you say? It's already been three months. And now today you tell me it could be another three months before I can ditch the damn thing? I live off state benefits at the moment. I need a freakin' job. And I can't get one like this, pal. Woulda been nice to know beforehand.

Other than that, not too bad. Got a free trip to a theme park on Saturday, courtesy of the place I live~ :D I have nice support workers.

Head situation: On using the techniques suggested by Fynn (Thankyou Fynnly~ :D) I have discovered my headpeople do, in fact, exist. Though their current revelations are not happy ones, my girls hold promises of happyness to come. Which I hope they'll show me soon.

And I misses you, honey~ You know who you are.



A couple of things I borrowed off Fynn. Confirmed a few things for me, too.

You Are 88% Bipolar

You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life. Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder.

You Are 62% Borderline

Many signs point toward you having a borderline personality. It's probably a good idea to seek therapy. Or at least read a self help book.